My best friend. What can I say, we've been through almost everything. You literally we're the backbone in my life and you've made the biggest impact ever. You've been there since day one. Today was the hardest day to face and never was I looking forward to it. It was hard because it would be the last time I would see you, and I know from there I wouldn't be able to hear your face EVERYDAY, talk to you EVERYDAY because of this ridiculous distance. I know I couldn't do anything about it, for personal issues. Things happen. But all I'm thinking is "why did it happen to us?" kind of this. It was all so quick, it was all so sudden.. and it came so fast. Ahh mann, I don't know up to now I'm still not thinking straight. Out of all people, it had to be you, kind of thing. But I understand why it had to happen..
This past two weeks were the most stressful, crucial time I've ever faced in a while. Because at the end it wasn't going to turn into a great cause, only turned into a worse case scenerio. Losing the most important people in my life. You and Kevin = literally the only people I can call family (being friends). You guys stuck through me through anything, and honestly.. I don't know where the good comes to this. Anyways, I'm getting teary eyed now. I've probably said everything to you in the quickest way possible because I was crying the whole day, LOL.. today was just like a normal day. Went to your house, just chilled, went to watch a movie, went to the beach, then our goodbyes.. Hardest thing ever. I loved your gift. I named it Jordan, buahaha. I know this isn't the end, but I'm still hoping something good will come out to this.
I just want to say thank you for the past and the present, and might as well thank you for the future. Since day 1, you've never failed to be there for me. Although we've been through rough patches, you've proved yourself to be the truest friend out there, because even if bullshit went down, you never fail to give up on me.. Unlike some people out there. You stuck through and we pulled through together. From being my family-friend, complete strangers, friend, best friend, brother figure, friends -> boyfriend, enemy to best friends again, this whole cycle proved that we've been through it all. Literally. This emotion and love I feel for you is like no other, and never forget when I say I love you, sooooo much and it will never change. Never have changed from day one. You'll always be that special boy, and you know that. I remind you like you remind me. From that whole 'mistake' down in April, you proved to me that you will never give up. And thank you for that, because it shows that there WILL be people who will be down for you through every ride. I've lost many people and up to now I still don't know the real meaning of "friends" but only a few can prove that meaning, one and most being you. Thank you for the good times, the bad times, the unbearable times where I wanted to kill and strangle you.. because to this day, we're stronger than ever and you have made th greatest impact in my life. These words are from the bottom of my heart, these words are the words that cannot come out of my mouth within the past few weeks. But actions speak louder than words. So you already know how I feel about all this. If you wanted me to write about you on how I truly felt about this, it was be so long, I'd be band from Blogspot.. :)
You told me almost every minute since I keep looking down today .. "No matter how far I am, just know that it will be the same. If you think it's not, just remind me. I'll try my hardest. Just for you, because you mean THAT much to me. My special lady." .. I fucking love you, have fun in the States, don't forget that I too, will try my very hardest to maintain this special friendship we have. ♥ Jordan Marc Ferrel, my best friend, I love you, BITCHASSSSSSS.
.. I thought it was necessary to break the cheesiness with our regular choice of words to each other. ♥♥
