Exhausted.

Emotionally and physically.

I don't know how much I can expand on this, but those two words are pretty much self explanatory.

People are just so damn ignorant sometimes, I know I can be too, but now a days people just push it. I don't understand where your coming from. Although I tell myself and everyone that I don't change for anyone BUT for myself.. because of your ways I managed to overturn that and change for something that would totally fuck me over. But here I go, back to square one... and I'm glad I am because it made me realize who's really the 'real' one out of everyone. You people made me believe that they were at fault for everything and stupid me just HAD to believe that and go on from there. But nope, unlike people like you, they actually had me from the beginning.. When they realized that all things fall, and I wasn't myself, they never gave up on me. Where are you guys? No where to be found.. Yeap.. Good one.

All in all, I'm just hoping for a change... just.. SOMETHING at least, because I'm getting tired of making myself look stupid infront of you.

Update.

I realized I haven't posted on this blog in a while, I kind of miss just splurging everything on this website when I'm just not too comfortable venting to my friends.

Things are getting better, but life itself is not suppose to be easy. We always tend to look for the easy way out, but it doesn't work that way. God intended us to go through obstacles, troubles, ups and downs to realize ourselves as a person and to find out how strong we truly are. But God would never put you through something you can't handle. We learn this the hard way. We tend to think that God has put us in this tough situation and just watches from above thinking that we are getting no help. If we don't get something we want, He's not saying "No", He is saying "You don't need it." If you think He abandoned you while you ask Him for help, He is saying "I'm with you every step of the way." And the type of help that He's giving you is beyond what you're asking for. I may be young, but I've gone through a lot the past couple years and I believe that God is there to help, even in ways that we'd never thought of. Because of that, I've become stronger, more independent and I can't always rely on other people for my benefit. Only I have the power and strength to feel the way I feel. What I'm trying to get at is, I'm tired of whining and thinking negatively about things. It's not right and in my perspective when I do that, it hurts the people around me, the people I love and who love me. There's a way through everything. A sunshine after the rain. And an answer to every problem.