No matter how hard I try to not let this get to me, it's failing. It's doing everything but letting it slide. I can't handle this pressure and I sure as hell don't need this shit. What did I really deserve to get this type of attention? I surely didn't ask for it, nor begged or seeked for it. I'm getting tired of trying to run from it or letting it slide. It's getting the best of me, and it's taking my energy. What is it? What the fuck did I do to deserve this? That's all I can say.. that's all that's running through my mind. Thinking things would change and thinking that you really we're the truest out there... I was a fool for ever thinking that. Biggest fucking idiot to think that everything would be okay. I'm an idiot for thinking I belonged and I clashed with you guys, clearly not, since I force myself every. single. fucking. time. And up to now, I still don't 'fit in'. I'm slowly realizing it though.. I'm slowly letting go and slowly realizing that I should give a flying fuck because you are not worth it. This is not worth my tears and the pain I'm going through is absolutely unnecessary.